December 3, 2014

The Countdown

Whew. Time seems to be flying faster than usual these days.
How did we get from 40 days to 8 days in the blink of an eye?
My heart is a whirlwind of emotions when I think about what the next few weeks will hold. 
Packing. 
Playing. 
Packing.
Hanging out with Carly & Hannah. 
Packing. 
Listening to Christmas music. 
Packing. 
One last night of duty for Tim. 
Packing.
(Ok, lets be honest...all of the above happened just today :) 
A few days of eating out since we will have to pack up our kitchen. 
Saying goodbyes to my sweet friends here. 
Driving. 
Sleeping.
Driving. 
Sleeping. 
Driving. 
Saying sweet HELLOOOOs to our families and friends at home. 
Settling into our new apartment. 
Getting everything out of storage.
Getting rid of all the things I have lived without and now know I don't need cluttering our space. 
DECORATING FOR CHRISTMAS!
Celebrating and savoring the God who took on this crazy broken humanity because He loved us too much to let us die in our sins. Grateful for the shereadstruth advent devotional that is bringing me back to the story that changed EVERYTHING. My soul is being drawn to worship my Creator, my Lover, my Rescuer. I need that in this season of change. I need to remember every day that my God never changes, and has been here for eternity, with no beginning and no end. Be still my soul.

I'm excited to be heading home next week. But I would be lying if I said I wasn't feeling nervous too.
It's been 5 months.
I have changed.
Tim has changed.
Jaxon has changed.
All of our friends and family have changed too.
I feel nervous about going home and everything being different.
I feel nervous about finding my place again.
I'm sad that our apartment is so far away from our church.
But I'm thrilled that we will be neighbors with Tim's brother and his wife, as well as our good friends who have a little boy Jaxon's age.
There are so many AMAZING things about going home.
I cannot wait to see our parents and siblings get the chance to get to know Jaxon now.
I cannot wait to worship and fellowship and be challenged and grow with our church in King George.
We have deeply missed our church body.

Just like I said in my "Turning 27" post, my heart's prayer is that I will be open.
Open to whatever God has in store for this new season.
I pray for grace to trust God's hand at work in all of our relationships, near and far.
I pray for a heart that is following hard after Jesus, bringing all my weaknesses and fears to Him every day and letting Him fill me with His Spirit and grace.
I pray for a willingness to let go of what I think I need, to receive what God gives every day. Because He gives GOOD GIFTS. He gives the BEST GIFTS. He gives what we NEED. He LOVES us.
I want that love to change me everyday.
I want that love to change the kind of wife I am, the kind of mama I am, the kind of friend I am.
I want to throw off my fears and welcome people in to share our life with us.

So here's to the next 8 days and beyond.
May the boundless love of Jesus hold you fast.
Love from a fellow pilgrim,
Lindsey



1 comment:

  1. It certainly has been a long and short 5 months . . . I cannot wait for your return. I am here waiting with an open heart and two wide open arms . . . I love you all so much!! See you soon!!

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